The Leonhart Hall is no one special.
He has neither wealth, good looks, pedigree or charm. His one and only skill is music and it's a flawed one at that. Leonhart plays the piano and like all other children who aspires to be in the music industry, he practice everyday. Before Hogwarts, he would regularly enter competitions and more often than not, win them. The prize money is quite nice, they went straight to his funds (college is expensive ok?). At Hogwarts, he joined the Orchestra to hone his skill further. His late father was part of the orchestra after all. With a mother who works as a piano instructor and a grandfather who collects vinyls, music have been his entire life. Even their family history centres heavily on music.
That and magic.
Leonhart's greatgrandfather encountered wizard folks when they tried to escape from Austria during Nazi regime. Grandfather was just a baby back then. His great uncle (who identified as homosexual) didn't make it, along with their Jewish neighbors. Then enter Grindewald followers ambushing them. German Aurors showed up, thank goodness, and they slipped away before their memories can be altered. His greatgrandfather pick the surname Hall because he used to work as a janitor at a music hall. Creative, right? The stories of the old days are passed on to the next generations. Those stories are what differentiates Leonhart from the others. It made him feel close to his Austrian roots somehow.
His grandfather insists on speaking German at home. To stay in touch with your heritage he said. Grandfather really misses the old days, when vinyls are still popular, when Beatles rocks the world, when his son is still alive.... Everything changes when Franz Hall died in that accident. His grandfather changed. His mother changed. Leonhart is no exception. Any 5 year old would change if you told them their father had died. It's a lifechanging event. His mother took it especially hard. Carla Hall have always been a perfectionist. Her insistance- no- need for perfection is fueled by her passion in things. Music is her everything as well. Music is how she met Franz. Music is how she connect with him, despite the... falseness.
Carla want and loves to be the best. She shoves him to hours of practice to prepare him. It's to prepare him for adulthood, so he will be ready to take on society. She drilled into him manners, music, studies. All for Leonhart to be the perfect child. Never complaining, always obliging, seldom disappointing. His mother has everything planned. From his daily schedule to life goals. Ever the good child, he goes along, making her proud with his mature persona. Good parenting is reflected on how the kid turned out. Carla is a great parent for bringing him up so good so far. She's a single parent supporting a child and an elderly. She always got home before dinner time and always check Leonhart's homework. She never missed any of his rehearsals and competitions. She is driven and know what she wants. Carla Hall is someone one would look up too. She does however, have her own flaws.
Leonhart can list them all. Oh so many of them. What particularly stood out is her dislike of magic. See, Carla is the type of person who will dismiss zodiac articles in magazines as nonsense. Imagine how she react when the Hogwarts letter arrives. It derails her carefully planned schedule. Leonhart supposed to enter a private school, win as many competition as he can, get scholarship, ace through university with flying colors, become a world class pianist. 7 years at a magic school mess that up. She is livid. Thinking that it's a hoax, they ignored the letter despite his grandfather's advice. After another letters from Hogwarts flood their mailbox and grandfather talking to her, she let him go. And honestly it feels like finally getting out of a cage.
But not the chains.
Studying magic is... Difficult. It is entirely different than what Leonhart knows of. But the discipline he had helped him get through. His grades are all 'Acceptables' and 'Exceeding Expectation.' He have no subjects that he particularly like and dislike. He is not particularly close with anyone.... It's like... He's barely there. And he's okay with it. Until his second year that is. The Magic Prime Minister's death, Abduco, election, it's all so messed up. On the other hand, Leonhart met many people.
There's Alice Mitchell, the popular first year. Her bubbly personality makes is easier for her to interact with people (something Leonhart secretly envious of). They met when Alice chase Berlioz around and then fell. As the owner of the cat, Leonhart feel obligated to apologize and take care of her at the moment. She struck him as childish initially but later own surprised him with her hidden maturity. And they bond over Disney, of all things. Her immaturity and maturity made Leonhart fall for her, as illogical as it sounds. When love is ever logical though? Music (Disney music) play a huge roll at their initial interactions but it was really Berlioz that make it happen at all.
through Alice, Leonhart meet Verania Belross, Tedmund Adelmar and Alastair Frutensia. Vera is overprotective to Alice, like a clingy sibling. Usually it's the younger one who is more clingy right? In this case, it is the older one. It freak the hell out of him when he notice physical similarities between her and his mother.
Music led him to Alvero Foster and Kohaku Ream. Both are into music (albeit in different ways). Foster is one crazy dude, Leonhart will not deny that there are times he is this close to physically hurt the fourth year. Purely self defense though. Lately Foster didn't try to hex him though. He wants him to compose a song. Leonhart have a 'What the ****?' moment there. He did, in the end, compose him a song. It has K-Pop feels in it, which is how Foster likes it. Foster's love for K-Pop is legendary (despite very few people know about it), Leonhart even play Hyuna for him when Foster must go finish the First Task (he is one of their school's champions for the Triwizard tournament). Well in any cases, they are like cat and dog (Foster chasing him and Leonhart running away).
Kohaku on the other hand... Is even weirder than Foster, in a sense. She is a tomboy, lazy, carefree and so forth. Almost the complete opposide of him. But Leonhart do feel like they are in genuine friendship. He even went as far to let her borrow his family's Stradivarius (long story). It's clear later on that she didn't feel the same. After a disastrous Quidditch match, Kohaku quit the team and told him to take the cello back. She snapped when Leonhart call her out on her behaviour. She throw snowballs at him. Who knew snowballs can be a trigger though? Like a key, it unlocks the things buried deep in his mind.
It started as dreams, which later turns to nightmares. He dream of his mother crying and yelling, yelling things at him. He dream of her hitting his arm every time he make a mistake. He dream of her refusing to hug him when he come to her. He dream of her outright ignoring him when he lost at a piano competition. He dream of her glaring at him. As time goes on, it become more and more vivid. Leonhart deny it at first but after days of sleepless nights, lingering tension and doubt creeping in, he can't deny it any longer. His mother has emotionally and physically abuse him. Everything made sense now. The way he hide things from her, how he always seem to be on guard around her, how he no longer expect physical contact from her. He done it all unconsciously. Now, it's glaringly obvious. The hidden hints and the not so subtle signs.
He owe it to Kohaku for triggering his memories. Although Leonhart is not so sure what is exactly the nature of their relationship right now and honestly? At this point it's not that important.
Everything become a mess. Leonhart is unable to touch the piano because of the memories. The stress make his magic goes weird. He can no longer perform things correctly, be it music, magic, studies or everyday task. He can barely function It feels like he's drowning... Perhaps this is what Kohaku feels like? When something that defies you is fake and forcefully taken away, what are you then?
Or in Leonhart's case, an empty broken shell.
His forte turns to a trigger, his personality is the creation of his mother and magic won't save him. Foster found him during one of his moods. He assures him that everything will be all right but insist the he can't wipe his memories. Ironic. Leonhart always run away from him but when he wants him to do it, Foster refused. Just great. Leonhart is pretty much convinced that he have depression now. Might develop to anxiety even. Or PTSD and other mental illness. Too bad Hogwarts don't have a psychiatrist.
Now he is not even sure what towards feel to his family. Gratefulness for his grandfather to try to help as he can, yet Leonhart feel angry at him for not doing more. His mother... Well, Leonhart can't wrap his head when it comes to her. Confusion, sadness, anger, even hatred. Yet there's a part of him that try to rationalise her behaviour. So far to make excuses. But he know, their relationship (or lack there of) is just... In any case, Leonhart do know one thing. He don't want to end up like Christian Grey, thank you very much.
That being said, Leonhart is glad that this year is almost over. Summer is approaching. He will be able to find out more information. Perhaps resolute himself to cut off his mother.... And among other things. There's a lot to consider about. In worse case scenario, he must drop out from Hogwarts or end up underneath the ground. It will be interesting to see how everyone react if he come back as a ghost... He'll be a frequent at the music room, that's for sure. To never grow up or being chained by responsibilities.... It's bittersweet really.
This year is definitely much more exciting than the last, Leonhart must grant that. Dragons, the Triwizard Tournament, Abduco, and meeting new people. From everyone he met this year, one person particularly stood out. Alice Mitchell. Unlike Foster, Kohaku and many others, his interaction with her is just... Simple. They talk about stuff like Disney and regular things like assignments. He is just in ease around her. Leonhart have told her about his nightmares and situation. She didn't say anything, just pull him to a long hug. He have no idea that having real support feels this good...
That's what Alice said to him in the end. Easier said than done but Alice do have a point. She's the optimist one after all. And Leonhart trust her. He maybe have little to nothing but that doesn't mean he can't try. Start from zero. Take one step at a time they said. No one can force him. Everything is entirely up to him. This is his chance to grow. To heal. To think. To rest. To have a fresh start. To rebel. To give himself a chance. For or the first time in forever, Leonhart feel like he have... control.
His mother may not like it. His grandfather may like it. Things might get worse. His fate is unknown. Everything will drastically change. Too many uncertainties. The odds is stacked against him.
But this is his first step to gain control of his life. His memories here in Hogwarts will be his fuel. Good and bad ones.
If his great grandfather can survived the Nazi, Grindewald and war, why can't he?